i think, therefore i think i am aligned

"the secret behind The Secret", she said, "is that the conscious and the unconscious need to be aligned."

bloody brilliant.

how could i have missed that one? manifesting busily all day, asking for lemons, doused in lemonade... and wondering what the karma i'm doing wrong

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you see, the conscious mind is generous with itself. it contains a non-negotiable belief that it is the vehicle through which we understand, desire and acquire things.

wrong.

at this pivotal moment in my argument, my mind flows to a sign i saw in a new york city window on 16th & 5th:

"i think, therefore i think i am."

the true engine of what we want, what we do, why we do or want anything, when it happens, and how we handle the consequences is, according to carl jung, carolyn myss, buddhists, and myself, the unconscious mind.

the conscious can want and want until its gray matter goes pale. unless the unconscious gives a green light, nothing is going anywhere.

and somewhere in my unconscious heart, i've got a light stuck in orange.

and so i dialed my transpersonal counselor:

"hello, i need some help with the invisible forces in my life."

"mmhm."

"i'm doing all i can with the stuff i can see. but i think there's stuff i can't see, and that's where the problems are coming from."

"okay. how's next saturday?"

and that's how, after five years on the loose, and while half way through a transpersonal counseling degree myself, i ended up back in therapy.

really, i'm feeling very good about this.

despite knowing better, i've been applying "i think, therefore i am" software, to an "i think, therefore i think i am" operating system.

good thing my spiritual tech team is on call. ("it's the back-end, stupid")

oh well, back to the drawing altar...