around the world (all night long)

sleepless again. no laundry this time.

new york - tel aviv - rome - delhi - katmandu - columbo - bangkok - saigon - melbourne - new york

if tomorrow

will you come tomorrow?
my brother is here for a few days. i'll come next weekend.
next weekend.
yes, is that alright?
yes. but i don't know. you better call first. i'm doing radiation now.
oh, of course. is it going well.
very well.
that's very good.
yes.
so i will see you soon.
yes, but you should call first.
i promise i will call.
it's better with you than without you.
i am with you.
seeing you helps my heart.

my heart too victor.
smile your sparkling smile for me.
please don't die.

uneven flow

so complicated morphs into so distorted. in the mirror, a distortion. before me, a distortion. see it all how it could be. see it all how it is. the gap, is irreconcilable. in the gap, is all of history. the deep wrinkles. the hunched back. hands flying, brows furowed. so hideously ugly. so hideously mysterious, how all that became me. how i became all that. a remedy is unlikely. except perhaps a quieter voice, a better posture, a tan. a longer fuze. a more placid heart. where is all my even flow. where did my even flow go.